We are like violins. We can be used for doorstops, or we can make music.

Every single one of us can do things that no one else can do – can love things that no one else can love. We are like violins. We can be used for doorstops, or we can make music. You know what to do.  –  Barbara Sher

Violin and bow.

old violin

I love so many things that the deluge often overwhelms me and I shut down. I love my husband and my sons.   I love the color of paint on my living room walls.  I love the coolness of the early autumn morning when I have to shut the window because I’m too cold.  I am almost too comfortable.  Like a violin swathed in it’s cozy velvet lined case, maybe I’ve become too comfortable with my surroundings.  I need change in my life to cause my strings to make music….no music in a vacuum, right?

Part of my cozy velvet case is having incubated Benjamin for the last six months.

We’ve been decidedly unsocial.  I see now that his reticence with strangers may have been headed off at the pass if I had gotten him out in the world earlier.  Or, maybe not.  I don’t feel like I’m the confident mother that I was with baby Sylas so long ago! I second guess everything now, maybe because I see how the choices I made with Sylas affected him and want to make sure that my choices affect Benjamin in a positive way.

So this incubation has also been desensitizing.  I feel, but not all of my feelings, and intuit, but not completely.  But now, I’m hungering for more.  I need to make music and not be a doorstop. Doorstops open the way for others, while making themselves immobile…maybe that’s the gist of the quote above that spoke to me.

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One Comment on “We are like violins. We can be used for doorstops, or we can make music.”

  1. maggie ann says:

    Wise words you speak. I am confident that your hunger will be satiated. Just becoming conscious of it is the first step. You will sing!

    Gratitude for your sharing on my blog post. I am so happy to come to know you ❤

    –Maggie

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