I’m learning a lot about shame…Posted: January 20, 2011 | |
…from this MondoBeyondo Dream Lab course with special guest, Brene Brown, Author of “The Gifts of Imperfection: Let Go of Who You Think You’re Supposed to Be and Embrace Who You Are – Your Guide to a Wholehearted Life”. She’s a Shame Researcher…
A story now, about my own shame:
I got very hurried this morning trying to make it out the door to the gym with my 9 mo old baby in tow (it was only the 3rd time in 9 months that i’ve tried to get to the gym and I was frazzled and unorganized)
…and, I yelled at him – for touching my hat….
– the look on his face, his curled bottom lip, my shame at my own impatience, my lack of self discipline. I didn’t want him to mess up my hair by pulling my hat off, because, you know, it would make me look MORE like the fat, frumpy housewife that I feel like. I was ashamed of me. His touching my hat might have made me more ashamed, so I lashed out in anger. I instantly regressed into previously felt emotions where I felt “not good enough”, and certainly not perfect.